Ok, got on the scale again this morning, and it said 186.4! Wow, just a few days ago I was hangin' in there at about 191 and the scale wasn't moving. That's how it goes.
It'll stick with one number and waver a pound up or down for a good week or more, then drop several pounds in a matter of days. Weird. I wish my body could talk to me and tell me just WTF it's doing!!
That means that now I'm just 26 lbs. overweight. Heck, I was probably born 26 lbs. overweight. : ) Well, not really, but I don't remember ever being "just" that much overweight. Even in high school, when, looking back at pictures now and I really was fairly thin, I was labeled as fat and felt very fat. Wow, brain games win again.
I do have a distinct memory of one of the first times I realized that I was, what...chubby?? I was pretty young, probably around 10 or 12, and we were going swimming at one of mom's friend's pool. Now there was a woman obsessed with MY weight - my mom. She had trouble snapping my swimming suit (I was a growing child ya know!), and made me go get on the scale. I was 126 lbs. Heck, I didn't know I was chubby, or at least didn't think about it. I just wanted to go swimming!
The worst part of the memory is, while we were swimming, I overheard mom telling her friend how fat I was and exactly how much I weighed. Um, like she had anything to say about being overweight?! Nice memory, huh? It's one of those that's burned into your brain, and will never go away.
So I think this summer when I put on a swimming suit for the first time, I'll probably send a finger gesture skyward. Thanks for the memories, mom. : )
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A journal of my voyage through gastric bypass weight loss surgery...and beyond!
Journey Unfolding
Journey:
1. a traveling from one place to another, usually taking a rather long time
2. passage or progress from one stage to another
Unfolding: To remove the coverings from; disclose to view
I thought that would be an appropriate title to my new blog, because I am definitely traveling from one stage to another!
1. a traveling from one place to another, usually taking a rather long time
2. passage or progress from one stage to another
Unfolding: To remove the coverings from; disclose to view
I thought that would be an appropriate title to my new blog, because I am definitely traveling from one stage to another!
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1 comment:
Ugh! Why-oh-why do (did) mothers say crap like that to us!!! Was it that generation? Did they think they were doing us a favor!?!? How hurtful. I'm sorry your mom sent you such a horrible message to you at such a young impressionable age. I hope and pray that I have never said anything like that to my children. If so I deserve for them to send me a big fat middle finger, too!
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